Personal Report:MDMA
MDMA
Experience Report
The first time I tried MDMA, it completely blew my mind. It felt unlike anything I had ever experienced before. Everything seemed brighter, time felt like it was moving a hundred miles an hour, and I felt incredibly light, energetic and social. It gave me this overwhelming urge to talk to everyone around me, you could meet a complete stranger and within minutes feel like you've known them your entire life. It's easy to understand why so many people fall in love with the experience after trying it once.
Unfortunately, I didn't respect the drug the way I should have and for a period of around three months I abused it heavily, sometimes taking well over a gram in a session and rolling every few days. Unsurprisingly, it didn't take long before the magic completely disappeared.
Even before that, though, I realized MDMA wasn't really the type of drug I was looking for. While most people love the empathy, emotional openness and "forced love" it creates, I found myself much more interested in clean stimulation and productivity. A lot of the time I only used MDMA because I couldn't get amphetamine or another stimulant, so it became more of a substitute than something I genuinely wanted.
After enough use, it became bland. The euphoria faded, the emotional effects stopped feeling special and I was just left with side effects. Nowadays I have very little desire to use MDMA again. I might still take it occasionally in the right setting with close friends, but it's no longer a drug that excites me or one I'd actively seek out.
Positives
- Drive/Motivation
- Anti-Anxiety effects
- Made me do crazy stunts early in the morning high as hell
Negatives
- Body load - It's unbearable for me and lasts 1-2 days
- Crashes, and not because of the sadness because of the pure exhaustion
- Forced feelings of love, it feels fake
Additional Notes
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